Saturday, October 27, 2007


My boss is going on nights   She has taken a job with the post office.

She'll do that in the morning and work at Taco Bell at night. I pitty the night shift. They'll have a double whammy.

She'll be real tired and  she wants thing done in a certin way and no buts about it.

Well I had it bad, but not what they are going to get. Oh it might not be that way.

I still have to keep on track so nothing gets back to her.

I still wished her good luck on her new job.

I knew even before she told me. It was the way she was going about it at work.

Well have a nice day

Thursday, September 13, 2007


Oh I don't know what to do.

My boss is a pain and I guess I bring it on.

She wants me to drop everthing when the buzzer goes off. To go to the customer.

Yes I know that I don't go to the customer right away.

So I know  that I bring it on her yelling at me.

So I better drop everthing and go to the customer.

Oh I hope everthing goes well this morning.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007


Well this week is going so so. So far.

The feeling that I have for now is this.

How can I say it.

Ok here it goes

When my boss complains about me being late. Putting the food on the line.

Here the list.

1. She always late

2. I have to put things away ( the night shift job.) take s time to do it.

3. Getting the small pans ready for the day

4. Set up my line (putting pans on the line.).

5. Then getting food in bags for the thermalizer. Put it in the thermalizer.

6. Prep the rest the food to put on line.

All this takes time.

I don't know how to deal with her complaints.

I guess ignore her and just get the stuff done





Monday, September 10, 2007


On Tuesday the fourth was a pain. The thing is I checked to make sure I was off that day.

I get a call from my boss asking where was I. I told her that I had the day off.

Well she was upset DUH She gave me the day off.

Then she said I was rude. Well she was rude to me. She kept asking me how come I wasn't there. I kept telling her I had the day off.

So wouldn't you be rude.

So the rest of the week I kept my mouth shut and didn't say a thing.

The she asked if I was ok I said yes I'm fine. I knew she want me to say something about Tuesday I didn't.

Just the other day she asked how I felt about her.

I told her I liked her and I do. There are time that she gets on my nerves, but I try to ignore her and get on with my work.

I just keep my mouth shut.

There another thing Sharon. It seems that when ever I get to chatting with her I get into trouble with the boss.

So I try not to chat with Sharon.

I know gossip is wrong. So no more



Tuesday, August 28, 2007


Yesterday somone noticed that I had lost weight

I felt real good. It made my day and it makes me feel that I can lose more.

I have lost so far 76 pounds.

REMEMBER To keep my mouth shut today. It will keep you out of trouble with the boss..


Monday, August 20, 2007


I don't know what going to happen today at work. I just keep my mouth shut and not say anything.

If I do say something I get into trouble. So zip the mouth shut.

So I'll let you know what happen.

Time: 5:10 pm

What a day. I just hate Mondays. There this customer is a pain We have two ways for our elderly customer to get a drink. One is to get a free 12ounce cup or get a Seinor discout not both.

Well I gave her a Seinor discount. The last time I gave her a senior drink 12 ounce. She complain abaout that.

Well she complained about the discount. She a whole lot of food and that kind of wipe out the discount I think.

Next time I'm giving her a choice.

My boss took the phone and talked to her Yes she called to talk to me about it. I did What I was told to do.

Oh I locked myself out of my apartment this morning. I have to set I keep one on my bag and one in my pocket attached to a belt loop.

I don't know what I was thinking about. I guess to catch the bus or something.

Now I'm home

Have a nice evening


Sunday, August 19, 2007


I must put this down; How I started to lose the weight:

It was February 2004.

One day it just snapped and I made the decision to start walking. At first I walked from the bus stop to work. That was way to much. I had to stop every block to catch my breath.

Then I start to walk up and down my street up for 15 min down for 15 min.

I also got a video tape called Body Flex. Which are exercise you do in a chair with arms.

That helped too.

The next thing I got was Dr. Phils weight loss book. I removed all the white refine foods. Got in whole wheat stuff. Fruit & Vegetables. Drink a lot of water with Ice.

also portion my food eat small meals.

I think the most important tool is a pedometer. You must have one.

Right now I can't think of anymore to say, but I do gain some two to three pounds. When that happens I get right back on wagon. I check to see what I have eaten then stop it and eat the right stuff.




I'm upset about something that someone said on a post on a group site I belong to .

she said that she was taking diet pills and not eating. Not good at all.

No wonder she depressed.

I took diet pills too a long time ago. It made me  angry and wanting to kill someone like my mother.

That's when I threw them in the toilet and flushed them down.

Now what I do is eat small portions and exercise. Walking mostly.

I use to weigh 279 now down to 206. I have lost 73 pounds

My main goal is to get down to 130. I take it a 5 to 10 pounds  increments.

One step at a time

Thursday, August 16, 2007


What a day. I will keep my mouth shut while at work, because it seams no matter what I say I get in trouble.

My boss is such a pain at times. Oh I just don’t know what to do. Yes I do SHUT THE MOUTH.

Another thing that bother me is when you just get to the transfer stop some pulls the cord DUH.

You don’t have to pull the cord it’s the end of the line! Oh I’m just sick of life right now.

I’ll survive.

Have a nice day

Wednesday, August 15, 2007


Oh what am I to do with this emotions. I love my family but they can drive me to tears.

I know that I shouldn't dewell on it, but I do.

Don't get me wrong. I do it gets to me  that's all.

Ok here the thing that is driving me to tears.

My older brother hasn't called me. I know that he's busy, but the one thing I want is him to call me.

Not me calling him!

That what upsets me. He gives me money for the month and pays my bills. That all good and well.

The one thing I would like is for him to call me to see if I'm a live.

I can be stubborn and I will on this matter no matter what.

Let see how long I can last. See who calls first.


Have a nice day

Tuesday, August 14, 2007


I'm down to 203.

It's hard I've been going the wrong way eating all the wrong stuff.

I would gain 4 to 6 up and down.

Now I'm going to stick with the right foods.

Oh my I have to get in the right mindset and do the internal dialogue thing

Have a nice day

Friday, August 10, 2007


I just don't know what I feel. I just make it throught the day. Thank goodness it friday my last day of work. I just think of something good and positive through out the day.

Well I finished the last Harry Potter book. Oh it was good. now I'm going backward in reading them.

Well have a nice day

Tuesday, July 24, 2007


Well I got lucky the grocery store had thier last copy of Harry Potter The deathly hallow and I got it thank goodness.

A big book It cost $34.00 but I got it for $26.00.

You know what I'll be doing

So I'm ok now got over the emotional upheaval I went through yesterday.

Now I'm working on my weight.

So I' have to get ready for work

Have  a nice day

Monday, July 23, 2007


Oh with my older brother. He said that I would get an a allowance of $500.00. Ok that is fine.

I just wish he would just call me on his own. Not me calling him.

Well ok that is fine with me.

Now for my twin.

I hate how he preaches at me.

I have DSL.  I have set it all wrong and I have to turn the dsl off to use in order to use my land phone.

I told him that I don't answer my land line anyway.

That I use my cell phone. Oh how he ranted about that "Oh that cost money. " SO.

That is why I use the cell phone.

OOOOh that is it.

I'm not a baby that is the way I feel like with my twin he treats me like that A BABY.

As for my older brother I'll give him a week. This Friday.

Then I'll call him

I must get over this and get my life and soul together.


Wednesday, July 18, 2007


The heat is getting to me. I use to walk early morning but the heat is there and there is no way I'm walking at that time in that heat.

So I did 5 min walking inside I'm going to increase it to 10 then 15 ad so forth.

I also have to get a handel on my eating.

Yes that I have to get it going.

Ok that's it for now

Sunday, July 15, 2007


I just don't know what to do. My weght loss group has a new chart and I don't know   how to work it.

I get so upset and fusstrated tying to figure it out.

I don't get the support as use to either.

I just don't know if I want to stay with the group, and I don't want to leave either.

I guess I'll use the old chart to put in my points

Oh I feel so depressed.

Ok this enough I'm done with this chart thing.

I feel a Whole lot better

Emmi has made me a moderator so I can put my points on the new chart.

Now I can do it

Wednesday, July 11, 2007


So sorry I haven't put anything in.

Well my father had passed away on Father day isn't that ironic.

My mother took it very hard. They had bee married for 60 years.

As for me I had no feeling no grieving, because he abused me as well he verbal and mental abused the rest of family.

Now don't get me wrong. I loved him while he was alive.

I even forgive him I didn't tell him. He didn't even come to me to ask forgiveness.

Oh well that life.

Monday, April 16, 2007


I just don't know what to do My boss keeps cutting my hours,

This week it's 15 hours. I got her to let me work on friday from 11 to 2  I was to be off  friday.

I've been praying a lot to get me through this.

Now my brother wants me to get disable benifits so now I have to make a appointment to see a shrink

Yes a shrink. What am I afraid of. I've been to see a shrink twice in my life.

But I just don't know what to do oh yes I do I just got to do it.

Make the call

Oh what a pain

Friday, April 6, 2007


I've been in pain for a long time. My left hip and knee are the one that are giving me trouble.

I've tried all the over the counter pain killers nothing works.

I'm sick and tired of this pain.

My parents have moved to another place closer to me. Right on a bus line as well across from where I work.

Real close.

I'll come back to finish.

Oh my boss wants to cut my hours t 3 hour per day. I can't make it  on 3hours a day.

She might as well let me go.

Oh i just don't know what to do at my wits end.

I knew it would come to this. I'm just to old.

ok enough is enough

Seen my mom at her new place nice.

She's ok kind of.

Have a nice day

Sunday, March 11, 2007

WOW 2007

Well I haven't been on this journal for a long time.

And  I don't know what to say.

I guess I can say this. I have been trying to lose weight.

Haven't been succeding vey well.

I must get back into a mindset and internal dialogue.

Oh well I also must watch what I eat. That's a mindset in it own.

Ok I hope to keep this Journal up 

Tuesday, January 2, 2007


Just a note

I'm sorry. I haven't been on and there a lot I have to say about 2006.

It has been a tough year for my family.

Three of us have been in the hospital.

Me, my mother, and sister in-law.

I was in for a miagraine headach.

My mother due to her medcine

My sister in-law for two things a stroke and stomach troubles.

I was also in a emergency room due to a fainting spell.

I'm very lucky that all three of made it through.

My sister in-law is recovering.

I pray for her and my mother every day.